Mama Said...

"Mama said there'd be days like this, there'd be days like this, my mama said..."  Yeah, I know what you're thinking, "How does she know that song? It was way before her time." ;-)  Well, when it comes to music, I have several decades covered.  I'm a music geek, what can I say?? I told someone just the other day that if all my subjects in school had been set to music, I would have been Valedictorian.  Let's just say, I didn't come close to Valedictorian...or even Salutatorian. Oh no, my GPA was more like Crematorium.  But I digress...  Today has been a pretty rough day in our family.  Hannah didn't receive such great news, so we've all kinda been in a funk today.  Isn't life funny?? One day, you're just sailing along, and the next it can throw you such a curve ball.  People often ask me why I'm always so happy or how it seems nothing ever gets me down. Oh there is plenty that gets me down, I think I just have become a master at hiding it well. Nor do I feel the need to verbalize it on a Facebook status. What good does it do?  I don't want to be one of those "Debbie Downer" people on FB.  Yeah, you know the ones I'm talking about because they're on your newsfeed, too. But it's just a part of  life to get down and have some rotten days.  Even on my down days, there is a part of me that is always reminded that these days are not going to last forever.  These days are passing me by quickly even if I don't feel they are at the moment.  It's during the harder moments of life that I'm so very thankful to know "this world is not my home...I'm just a-passin' through... "   With each passing day, I'm getting one step closer to that perfect home. The one waiting for me right now.  I don't understand often times why we have to go through what we go through. I don't understand one inkling of why Hannah can't get a break, but I know in my heart of hearts that God has a plan for her.  He's already using her in more ways than any of us could have ever imagined. I cannot believe the hearts she's touched and the people who are moved by her endurance.  People who have never even met her continuously posting about her on their status on Facebook.  It blows me away to know that so many people care about Hannah and our family so much.  All of you who are doing all of this and praying so fervently are blessing us more than you will ever know, and thank you just doesn't seem like enough.  I think we are probably all wondering why Hannah has to deal with so much "stuff", but I know without a doubt that one day, she will be perfect, she will be whole. There will be no more heart doctors or eye doctors.  There will be no more bad news. I know she will never have to deal with any of this stuff again.  Why does she have to endure it now? Maybe it's to teach me or you a lesson. Maybe it's to teach me to shut up and stop complaining because really? How hard is my life in comparison to hers?  I don't have good vision, but it's not been so bad that it can't be fixed by glasses and contacs. I've never had 3 open heart surgeries before the age of 1, not to mention the 50 plus others surgeries she's had over the course of 12 years of life.  My goodness, I've never even been in the hospital and I'm 40 (almost). I've never even broken a bone (knock on wood).  My health has been out of this world. The worst thing I've ever had in my life to deal with is having my wisdom teeth removed when I was 21.  I have been FAR more than blessed with good health.  Hannah is my hero, there's just no other way to put it, and she has taught me more than I have ever learned from anyone.  But she's mostly taught me to be content, to shut up, and stop complaining when my head hurts or my nose is stopped up.  When I get sick, my sickness goes away. Hers is her life, and yet when you ask her how she is doing she is ALWAYS "good!"  That is her answer every time you ask her.  What a blessing Hannah is to me and so many others. She is an angel on earth, and I know that God is with her every step of the way even if we might wonder where He is. Just like I said in a previous blog, He is THERE.  He is there in all of the doctors and nurses who tend to Hannah, He is there in the midst of all of our tears, He is there in the the friends who have poured out so much love and prayers to us.  My God is THERE.   So today, you can sing the song, "mama said there'd be days like this..."  or you can sing, "He knows my name, He sees each tear that falls..."  I choose the latter because I know my God sees all and He is with us every step of the way. I cannot imagine living life without Him.  Thanks to each of you again for your prayers! It means more than you can ever know to our family.  God Bless!